I feel like welcoming myself back right now, let alone anybody who reads this! I haven’t posted since 29th August and I have no idea why. So much has been going on in my life with regards to my back/shoulder blade and treatment. I guess I’ve been so bogged down with my university work that I haven’t had much ‘me’ time, and self-reflection is so important, and I need to stop neglecting this. Anyway…
Things were going well, I saw my consultant on 5th September, my spec CT scan was clear, and I was told that all my metal work is where it should be, is looking good, and I was praised heavily for the incredible recovery I have made. However, my shoulder blade has worsened a lot, and £900 worth of private physio has made no difference, in fact this winging scapula problem has now appeared on my other shoulder blade. I had nerve conduction studies and EMG probably about 6 weeks ago now, a very unpleasant experience, but absolutely convinced that on 27th Feb 2018, I’d get the answers I’ve been waiting for for 11 months now.
Long story short – everything has been getting worse, and affecting me so much, just in pain constantly, and I found nothing to date that has helped alleviate any of this whatsoever.
Today, as if all my angels were watching down on me together I got a cancellation and saw my consultant at 10:55. The nicest guy I know, he unfortunately couldn’t give me anything I wanted today and told me everything I didn’t want to hear – EMG and nerve conduction studies inconclusive, referral to a shoulder specialist necessary.
So here I am, 11 months from my original referral, no progress made, worsening pain. Feeling down, but making sure I reiterate to myself that this earlier appointment means I’m already approx. 10 weeks ahead of the game from if I got my results in Feb.
I found a quote earlier and it reads:
‘Impatience is the root of all your problems, you cannot force life to give you answers, you must let them unfold before you’.
And I think this pretty sums up my point of view today. I’ll come to terms with today and take away the positives that the ball is rolling, many things can now be ruled out, and that I am still looking forward.